The denying my parentage . . .
The denying that I have any intelligence . . .
The denying of my humanity . . .
(demon and devil were mentioned)
but this time it was one step beyond
and I lost myself to tears.
I sobbed as I bathed him,
and he realized he'd gone too far . . .
he tried to explain himself and apologize . . .
This is NOT dementia.
Now, when you go to a Doctor,
they ask if anyone is abusing you at home.
"Hmmm, my 87 year old Father kicks, hits, and scratches me . . . we won't even mention the verbal abuse."
Yeah, right.
I question my sanity.
PS
the topper yesterday, was . . .
once again someone, (one of their friends),
asked why I didn't sell my home . . .
and just move here.
Thinking of you! There is nothing harder than trying to keep it together while watching your parents fall apart!
ReplyDeleteI don't even know what to say, other than I'm thinking of you and sending you strength to keep on doing what you're doing. And remind you that you have a break coming up very soon.
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry.
ReplyDeleteI remember what it's like and ACHE for you.
This is such a moving post. While we don't deal with physical abuse from my father in law, the verbal and psychological abuse is there in abundance.
ReplyDeleteI won't pray for strength for you, as I believe we only get tested if we do so, but I will pray for insight and wisdom on how to cope.
Hang in there, Alice.